Fic: Parting Ways

[may-unleashed.livejournal.com]

 Fic: Parting ways

Fandom: D. Gray Man. Kanda Yuu-centric.

Rated: General

For:  nobeansprout

Warnings: Angst. Death fic. Apart from that, none.

     

Summary: “It was not a tomb, there was not a name plate, the Order would not allow it. But all of them would forever remember this place as his -his his his- resting place”.


"Parting Ways"


One of the figures stepped forth, a hand reaching out, out, out and upwards, towards the horizon, towards the fading blues and yellows of the darkening sky.

A faded crimson ribbon, thin and softened strip of cloth, danced among the fingers of the outstretched hand. The wind blew, the ribbon danced, threatening to slip out of the weak grasp.

The silence was broken, a soft voice, male and hushed.

Kami-sama ni koi o shiteta koro wa
Konna wakare ga kuru to wa omottenakatta yo

Behind this figure, behind this person, behind this red-haired man, the rest of the survivors listened to the foreign language, to the strange words. Allen, Linali, Miranda and Noise Marie did not dare to break the enchantment.

Mou nido to furerarenai nara
Semete saigo ni mou ichido dakishimete hoshikatta yo

Too many deaths, too many lives lost, too many friends buried, too many sacrifices made to win this war. Everyone thought their hearts wouldn't be able to cope with it anymore. Not after losing Krory, not after losing Komui, not after losing the Bookman, not after losing Cross Marian, Tiedoll, Klaud Nine and Winter Sokaro.....The exorcists thought the price for this victory was already overpaid. Who would have thought that one more life needed to be laid down to end this massacre?

On top of the hill where they all stood, one lonely sword was embedded in the soil. And Lavi's whispers continued.

It’s a long long good-bye…

The other exorcists could only recognize those English words, but still they waited and they listened and they stared at their friend, the new Bookman, whose green eye was transfixed in the image of the red ribbon billowing among his fingers. One last goodbye. One last goodbye to their friend, murmured in the native tongue of the person who had become the last sacrifice.

Sayonara sayonara nando datte
Jibun ni mujou ni iikikasete
Te o furu no wa yasashisa da yo ne
Ima tsuyosa ga hoshii

Lavi-no, the Bookman took one more step forward, and after seriously considering to let loose the red ribbon in the wind -and it was not a mere ribbon, it was a hair tie, it was a hair tie for long blue/black tresses- he decided against it, and instead, loosely wound it around the hilt of the solitary sword.

It was not a tomb, there was not a name plate, the Order would not allow it. But all of them would forever remember this place as his -his his his- resting place. This was the resting place of Kanda Yuu.

Sayonara sayonara itoshii hito
Anata ga ita kara aruite koreta
Hitori nanka ja nakatta yo ne
Ima kotae ga hoshii

Or maybe a God and Heaven did exist, and Kanda Yuu's soul would find itself somewhere quiet and white and peaceful where to meditate. Or maybe he would be reborn, like the Asian culture said.

Lavi, no, the Bookman almost smiled at the thought. No one could know for sure. He, whom had been considered Kanda Yuu's closest friend, could barely phantom what kind of haven the Japanese man would desire, or what kind of second life he would be thrown into.

Moshi umarekawatte mata meguriaeru nara
Sono toki mo kitto atashi o mitsukedashite
Mou nido to hanasanaide tsukamaetete
'Hitori ja nai' to sasayaite hoshii

The red-haired man knew for sure that the Japanese man would curse him and despise the song being murmured right in those moments. It was cutesy and sad and foolishly romantic.... but Lavi, no, the Bookman could not help himself. It was indeed one long and painful goodbye.

“Let's go now”, Bookman turned back to his friends -the last ones standing- and they all made their way downhill.

Allen, eyes shining like melted crystal -Kanda Yuu did warn him about his open emotions- asked Lavi, with a thread of a breaking voice, what that song meant.

Bookman smiled, and took a deep breath.

The others gathered close to listen.

END

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Notes: The song ( Diamond Crevasse) is taken from anime series Macross Frontier -no comment- because this ending theme frankly makes me sad. And when I feel sad, I tend to think of Yuu. 

I would really like to encourage you to listen to the song, and thus I provide this link of the full version: 
http://es.youtube.com/watch?v=4YUex6eRMOE&feature=related

Only some verses of it have been used, and the English translation of those particular verses is provided below:

When I was in love with God
I never thought that such a parting would come
If I couldn’t ever touch you again
Then I’d want you to embrace me again for the last time at least

It’s a long long good-bye…

Goodbye, goodbye, over and over again
I tell myself as best as I can
Waving my hand is kindness, right?
Now, I want strength

Goodbye, goodbye, beloved one
If you were with me, I would’ve been able to walk here
I wasn’t alone, right?
Now, I want the answer

If I am reborn and we can come across each other again
Surely you’ll find me then
Don’t ever let go of me again, catch me
I want you to whisper “You’re not alone” 

 

Comments

[nobeansprout.livejournal.com]

Intriguing. Definitely intriguing.
Did he die as a human or as a Fallen?

Gah, I shouldn't read such sad things when I lack sleep, it makes me all teary inside ;3;
Thank youuu~
*tackleclinghugs*

[may-unleashed.livejournal.com]

He died as a human, somehow.

Or at least everyone else thought he was human.

*is shot*

If I continue with this train of thought, I might find myself caught in another plot for a future fic. And I still have 2 pending. XO

*pats pats* Go have some rest, I'm on my way to bed too *hugsback*

[may-unleashed.livejournal.com]

OMG WHAT THE HELL!!

Ne, Deidei, we were playing with this possibility since loong ago, it seems. Maybe the manga will add some twist like this scenario, where he's not fully human. XOO

*gasp*

Checking old fics to get back on track.

[shieyume.livejournal.com]

*sulks in a corner* KandaaaaAAAA! *sniffs*

Seconding the 'intriguing' part too and here I am bearing this intense gut-feeling that he really is NOT a human. o_0

[may-unleashed.livejournal.com]

*joins you in mushroom corner*

I blame Kanda himself, he's way too pretty and thus easily evokes angst!

I am seriously considering adding this to an unfinished piece I'm working on, now. Along with the non-human possibility.

[may-unleashed.livejournal.com]

Whoa there! Randomly checking old ficcies, I just realized we were talking about this scenario (Kanda not being wholy human) and seems like the manga is taking the same direction!

*gasps!*

[kazura-uyurin.livejournal.com]

*sniffs* I had to blink away some tears when I got to the end.

The fact that it's Lavi murmuring the song makes me all the sadder. I know you meant it as a gen fic, but well, the LaviYuu fangirl in me reads it as something more. ^^"

It's lovely. Really, really lovely. *sends love*

[may-unleashed.livejournal.com]

*sniffs with you* As cheesy as it sounds, me too. I really don't know why I am so enamoured with the idea of Kanda having a sad story.

Feel free to read it as a LaviYuu piece, although it is meant as gen. This is the Lavi that I like to portray, and with whom I am comfortable to pair Kanda sometimes. I do not fancy over-faker Lavi anyway.

*grateful for sent love*

[elenatha.livejournal.com]

It was vague, but the same leaves you with open possibilities as to what happened to him. Lavi saying those words was very sad, too. This only makes me think even more how did he and Kanda meet- because they've obviously known eachother for far longer than Allen has.

I liked it. Good job.

[may-unleashed.livejournal.com]

I had a hard time keeping it vague, actually. I tend to over-explain and present too much detail sometimes.

But I think the open possibilities as to what really happened works fine with the rythm of the piece, or at least that's what I tried to share *smacks herself*

How Kanda and Lavi met is barely mentioned in canon, hm? They met when they were 16 years old, and Lavi started teasing Kanda with the "Yuu-kun" name, after listening to Tiedoll calling Kanda by first name. Obviously, Kanda tried to slice Lavi with Mugen, and Linali came to the rescue.

Rather comical, but characters as complex as Lavi and Kanda strike me as able to communicate with one another in dire situations, and both being aware that the other is full of lies. Nanka ne....

[elenatha.livejournal.com]

You did a wonderful job.

How do you know that? I don't think its mentioned in the manga.. or.. did I skip something?

Yes, I think both understand each other very well because of that. Good point.

[may-unleashed.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

Ah, gomen. That information is not actually mentioned in the manga, but the fandom considers it canon since it appeared in the official fan book Gray Ark.

*blink blink*

You've checked the fanbook, ne? With the characters profiles and other interesting info.

I give you here some links:

Download the raw Fanbook: http://community.livejournal.com/dgrayman/125955.html

Some translations: http://community.livejournal.com/kaybek/13510.html

More translations and stuff: http://www.dgraydivinity.net/forum/bookmans-library/1095-d-gray-man-official-fanbook-character-profiles.html

Unfortunately I cannot find exactly where I got my translated image of Kanda's profile that speaks about how he met Linali and Lavi. That is one of the profils, 'cause in the links I provided before you will find another Kanda profile with more info.

Ara ara I'll try and send them to you hm?

[elenatha.livejournal.com]

Thank you for the links, I happened to find them a day before your reply xD;
Also, I found where it says when they met who: http://community.livejournal.com/interval/5791.html
Thank you again for sharing!