dgray_man | Re-entri: Always Be With You

Okay...looks like I pretty messed up with my previous post....so I fixed it.

Title: Always be With You
Pairing: Yullen, KandaxAllen
Rating: Hmmm... T maybe...
Summary: Allen had an accident and got blind. How Kanda will do for him?

Always Be With You

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I should have known it...

I met him 3 years ago.

He came to my father’s funeral.

He comforted me who dwell in sadness…sad because I lost the person I cared the most…sad because I have to be alone again…

At first, I didn’t like him at all and ignored him.

But…he didn’t give up on me. He didn’t leave alone. He didn’t make me felt the emptiness.

That time…I found the one I love…Kanda Yuu…

I should have realized it sooner…

Today, my foster family will take me to the beach.

I want him to come along, but he has a job that he has to finish together with his cousin, Lavi.

Somehow, I really miss his voice…his face…I really don’t know why I miss it so badly…

So I decide to go to his house before I go.

I knock his door and Lavi greets me with his cheerful smile.

“Allen? What’s up?”

“Is Kanda here? I…want to meet him…"

He grins after I answered it shyly. He knows that I like Kanda and I know Lavi likes me but he withdraws his feelings and then he supports me.

He is really nice guy. I really glad I have a good friend like him…

“Wait here. Yuu-chan! Allen wants to see you!”

He shouts with a very loud voice, loud enough to wake a whole city.

Not in a minute, Kanda comes with angry face and then swings his katana to Lavi.

“Baka Usagi! You don’t have to shout! I’m not deaf!”

“But If I didn’t do that, you won’t come…right? Let me do that job so you two can speak together. See ya!”

Lavi runs as he speaks, leaving us alone. He really supports us, doesn’t he?

I should have known those warnings…

“So…what do you want, moyashi?”

I frown when he called me by that nickname. I really don’t like that nickname…but somehow I start to like it…It makes me…his.

“It’s Allen! I…just want to see you before I go…”

When I said it…my chest hurts…

Why?

Why I feel these uneasy feelings?

“Huh? Cut it out! You said it like…you’ll never see me again!”

“Sorry…I just…I don’t know why I said that… Anyway, I have to go! I’ll bring you something.”

I smile and wave my hand to him, bid him farewell. He smiles a bit and waves his hand too.

But why?

Why my feelings tell me not to go?

I shouldn’t have ignored it…

We go to the beach by car. My foster parents are very happy with this trip, but I…feel something wrong…

I feel uncomfortable…so afraid… I never feel like this before when ride a car.

Suddenly, there’s a truck in front of our car and crashes us.

The last things I hear are screams and loud noises. I can’t see what happened.

What I see is…black.

Now is too late...

When I wake up, I don’t see anything…only darkness.

I touch my face…there is bandage covering my eyes and head.

Then, I hear voices, Kanda’s, Lavi’s, and a man that I don’t know.

“Allen! Thank God you’re awake!”

Their voices…why they seem…worry?

“Kanda? Lavi? What happened?”

They quite… I only hear Kanda’s heavy sigh.

“Allen…you…you have a car crash…”

Car crash? Oh that’s right…that truck…It hit us…

“Where the others? Why my eyes bandaged?”

They quite again…then another man speaks….looks like he’s the doctor.

“Sorry. They died in the crash. Only you survive from that accident. And your eyes…your eyes damaged badly.”

THUMP

I feel my heart stop for a second after hearing that.

My foster parents…died…and…I…I…I can’t see…?

No…this is a nightmare…it has to be a nightmare…

But this pain…it realized me that this isn’t a nightmare…

It is real.

The darkness swallows me…

After a few weeks, my wounds recovered but not my eyes…I’m still blind.

The only thing I see is darkness…

But I don’t feel alone…Kanda and Lavi are here…always here…

They always nice to me and care to me…even my condition isn’t perfect…

Sometimes….because of that too…I feel useless…become burden…

But you become my light…

“Uum…Kanda…do you want to…break up?”

I can feel he surprised by my question.

I don’t want to burden him with my currently state…so I asked him to break up our relationship…

I don’t want that either…I still love him…but now I’m blind…

“Baka! Why do you ask that nonsense question?!”

He yells at me…angry…

“That because…I…useless and…blind… You don’t want to have a boyfriend like this, do you?”

“BAKA! I don’t care if you blind or not! I love you moyashi!”

I surprised by his statement. I never expected this…but I’m…happy…

Happy that I have a boyfriend like him…so faithful…

I feel like see a light in this darkness…

You save me from the everlasting darkness…

“You will the eye operation…that way, you will see again.”

The doctor’s words give me hope…hope to see his face again…to see his smile again…

But again, there’s something weird feeling in my chest…

“Hear that, Allen? You will see again.”

Allen? He called me Allen? That’s unusual…

“Kan-”

Before I finish my words, he kisses me…a very deep and long kiss…

He hugs me very tight…like he doesn’t want to let me go…

He acts very unusual…Lavi also quite these days…I’ve got weird feelings about this…

I can see the lights again because of you…

Three days later, the doctors do an operation with my eyes.

I can’t really remember what happened before I passed out because of the drugs…

After the operation finished, I can see again but the doctor still forbids me to have a visitor until I recover.

I can’t wait to see him again…to see Kanda…and Lavi…

Two weeks later, the doctor allows me to leave the hospital.

When I go out from the hospital, I see Lavi waiting for me in the lobby.

But…I don’t see Kanda around…

That’s weird…they always together…

“Allen!”

He runs to me and hugs me while smiling brightly.

“Hello Lavi…where’s Kanda?”

His smile suddenly dropped. His eyes also become a sad one.

“What’s wrong?”

“…I’ll take you to his place.”

He gives me a sad smile and then takes me to his car.

In his car, he inserts a CD into his laptop and plays it.

It’s a video of him, Kanda.

You give the lights…even if you left me forever…

“Is it on yet, usagi?”

Kanda sit on the edge of the bed.

“Yup, the camera is ready.”

He takes a deep breath and then starts talking with serious face.

“Moyashi, If you see this video that means I…already gone. I…have a cancer in my lungs…and I will die…”

He silences a while, searching the right words.

“The doctor said that…If I give you my eyes, you can see again. So when I die, the doctor will do the eye operation. I will give my eyes to you.”

Kanda smiles at the camera, a soft yet reassuring smile.

“I’m sorry…I can’t be there when you can see again…I want you to be with Lavi after I’m gone…He loves you…I want you two happy together-hey usagi, stop crying like a baby! You ruin the video!”

“B-Bu (sniff)…y-you know (sniff) why I’m crying! (sniff)”

Kanda sighs and then stares the camera again with soft look.

“I love you Allen…I always love you… So don’t give up on living, keep living for my sake…because I will be always with you, as your eyes…”

But I will keep moving forward…

I shocked after I saw the video…

I feel like everything stop and blank…

“Allen…I’m sorry…”

I turn my head and stare at Lavi who looks very sad and guilty…

“So…these eyes are…Kanda’s…? He… Why?”

“He loves you Allen…very love you…”

No…It can’t be… Finally I can see again but…I can’t see you again…can’t see you face again…can’t see your smile again…

No…this isn’t fair! Why?!

“Allen…we’re here…”

Lavi holds my hands and takes me to the cemetery.

He takes me to Kanda’s graveyard…

In there, I cry…very loud…

Because you always with me…

Years have past…

Now I’m with Lavi and become his boyfriend…

He loves me and I love him too…but I still can’t forget my first love…Kanda Yuu…

But I won’t dwell in sadness anymore…

I will move forward and keep on living…for your sake…

I won’t be alone…because you always with me by my side…

I always love you…Kanda Yuu…forever…

Fin.

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Re-entri: Always Be With You

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